Mindful or Mine-field (filled???)
I just read a post by Paul Overton about the links between our thought processes and being mindful. I love the way this guy expresses himself though the written word…and was feeling a little less than self actualized when I first started to read his latest post The Weakest Link. Paul has a way of writing out how my thought processes go like we have been friends for years (although we have never met) and let me tell you my thought processes are a bit wonky at times.
I used to be a “reactor” kind of in a nuclear way, I would jump right into my reactions, emotionally, verbally and usually loudly and although I will always remain loud, I have learned to take in the entire story, or situation and not let them rule my reactions. This is not to say that I am never surprised by life, it continues to surprise me daily, I just don’t go off like a pressure sensitive land mine every time a problem crops up.
It is interesting, I’d like to think I had gained this ability to be “mindful” through practice, but I believe it would be more honest to say that I fell into a pit of mindlessness first and then crawled out of the chasm of “less” to the other side, a bit more emotionally distant, but for me, that was good. I filled the gap with reason and thoughtfulness and humility and that has been a good thing…and the ONLY reason I could do that, was through the Grace of God…this was nothing I achieved on my own.
A quote from Paul’s blog:
“If I’m unable to catch myself though, then I’ve bought a ticket on the merry-go-round of seeking pleasure and avoiding pain, which is how most people, including myself, have spent their time. Previously, I used to just refer to that as “life”, not knowing that there was a way out of it.”
I spend time still on the merry-go-round, but it getting to be less and less.
Have a wonderful and mindful day 😀